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Anna from Vivianna Does Makeup has been my favourite beauty blogger for quite a long time, mainly because I love how much she loves makeup. When I first started watching her Youtube channel and reading her blog I found myself feeling slightly envious that she managed to be so positive about all things beauty because I never let myself get as excited and enthusiastic about the beauty industry as I really wanted to because of people in my past making me feel like I was a stupid/horrible/vacuous person for being interested in makeup rather than more important world issues. When I read her 'Why I Love Makeup' post back in May I found myself quite literally fist pumping the air and having the biggest spicegirl-esque girl power moment, particularly with her phrase "some people collect stamps, I collect lipsticks." It suddenly hit me that having a love and passion for beauty and makeup doesn't make me a bad person; it's just something that gives me joy and a bit of a fun. Now that I've finally taken the plunge to go back to college to train as a Beauty Therapist (I'm a month into my course and absolutely loving it!) I can feel my love of beauty growing even more and I'm really enjoying immersing myself in something that I'm truly passionate about and interested in. I wanted to write this post today as a little reminder to myself that there isn't any harm in loving beauty and makeup and it's actually a really exciting and interesting industry to be a part of...

My love of makeup started with the purple, glittery vanity case which came with the first issue of Sabrina the Teenage Witch magazine and you then got a different makeup item with each issue (oh the fond memories of blue sparkly eyeshadow, LOL!) I was a big fan of the Glitter Babes range in Boots too and I got my first 'proper' makeup items from Collection 2000 when I was about 12. I was a lover of anything glittery and sparkly and thought makeup was so fun and cool, and I remember going a little crazy with piling it on for the school discos. When I became a teenager I had quite problematic, spot prone skin which I was super insecure about, so concealer and pressed powder became my best friends and they helped to make me feel a little more confident with my appearance. I didn't start wearing proper makeup daily until I was about 16 and although I loved a good winged eyeliner, I didn't wear very much and only had a small makeup bags worth. I loved looking at different makeup looks in magazines though and tried (most of the time unsuccessfully!) to recreate some of my favourite celebrity looks. I discovered beauty blogging during my second year at University (first year was all about crazy bronzer stripes across my cheeks and glittery liquid eyeliner which makes me chuckle so much when I look back at the photos!) and my obsession grew and grew. It makes me so happy to think about how much beauty blogging helped me to get through such a difficult period of my life by giving me a form of escapism and introducing me to like minded girlies who didn't judge me for having five different shades of berry lipstick.

I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and Joint Hypermobility Syndrome when I was 19 and makeup became my little weapon for dealing with being chronically ill; putting on some pretty makeup made me feel like I could fight the pain and exhaustion and get through the day and it stopped me from thinking of myself as an ill person with all these limitations I suddenly had. I always said to myself 'you can't possibly feel down or depressed if you've got pretty glittery nail polish on or are wearing a sassy bold lipstick' and you most certainly can't cry when you've worked hard to perfect your winged liner! I then went through a couple of years of suffering with severe insomnia, so being able to make my face up a little made me look and feel more human (especially under eye concealer!) It may sound silly but you carry yourself differently when you've got a bit of glam going on and looking well is the best way of making yourself feel more well. For me makeup is all about making myself feel a little brighter eyed and bushy-er tailed and after failing to find any treatment or medication which helps with my illnesses, a good old pamper is just about the only thing which makes me feel better and stops me from getting depressed when I'm going through a bad flare up with my pain levels and exhaustion.

I'm not ashamed to admit that I buy new makeup every single month. The way I see it, I work hard to earn my money so why shouldn't I spend some of it on something which makes me so happy? I absolutely love trying out new products and finding little bargain gems, then putting together blog post reviews and chatting about the products on my Instagram page; nothing makes me happier than when someone tells me they've bought something which I've recommended. The main thing that I love about the beauty industry is how there's always new product releases, techniques to try and trends to follow - it's a really exciting world to be a part of (and escape to!) and it's also super interesting to learn about as there's lots to research and things are always developing.  Beauty is a fun and uplifting thing to be interested in and it gives a lot of happiness and enjoyment; who doesn't want to be pampered and made to feel a little better in what can be quite a stressful and challenging world?!

"That's one of the things I love about makeup; you can change your whole attitude by just doing your eyeliner or lipstick differently." - Beyonce


  1. Loved this post Holly. I love makeup for a numerous amount of reasons, but mainly because it's fun. The great thing about makeup is that if you mess up, all you need to do is remove it and start again! I love nothing more than a winged liner, it is most DEFINITELY a form of art (and a great skill!) as well as pretty colours of eyeshadow or lipstick! xx

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  2. It was really interesting reading your journey! I think I remember that magazine with the case, I wanted it so much! Your storage is so pretty by the way, and I'm glad you're enjoying your course :)

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  3. Great post, its lovely reading your story! I too remember the days of getting excited about the make-up item that would come free with magazines :'D Reminiscing about how any of us first got into beauty is an interesting topic ^_^

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