11/02/2015

A FEW THINGS I'VE LEARNT...

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1. Illness can come from nowhere and completely rip the carpet from beneath your feet - My life has been turned upside down since becoming chronically ill four years ago which has resulted in me having to change and adapt a lot of the ideas I had of what I wanted from life as they're no longer possible. Trying to accept that you're going to be in a massive amount of pain and feel completely drained and exhausted every day for the rest of your life is a hugely difficult thing to come to terms with, especially when you're young and meant to have the world at your feet.

2. It's ok to find love and settle down at a young age - I've been with my fiancé since I was 18, he's the only boyfriend I've ever had and I wouldn't have it any other way. If you find someone who makes you happy and you can see yourself growing old with them then just go for it, no matter when in life you meet them. I met James a couple of months before I was meant to be moving away to University so the timing couldn't have been worse. He's almost ten years older than me and a lot of people said it wouldn't work because we were at completely different stages in life; I'm not saying it's been easy because it hasn't, and my life plan has changed a fair bit to coincide with our relationship, but I'm a very firm believer that everything happens for a reason and sometimes you have to just go with it, even if it's not what you'd planned.

3. Sometimes friendships aren't forever; its ok to drift away from people - I had quite a few friends when I was at school and college and unfortunately all of those friendships have faded over the years. There are some people I never hear from and some people I still chat to occasionally and it feels like nothing's changed. Sometimes people just don't stay in touch and it's a really difficult thing to deal with, but when you all move away from each other it happens and unfortunately you do grow apart. Loneliness is something I struggle with a lot as I only really have my sister as a close friend now, but I also have James, all of my family and some friends at work so I try to focus on those relationships and I know new friendships will develop as I move through life.

4. Life doesn't always have to be a big adventure - Surrounding yourself with home, family and little comforts can be a good thing. I worry sometimes that I should be living a more exciting life whilst I'm still young, but I've always been a very home orientated person and I just enjoy spending time with James and my family.When you're ill your priorities change and I don't think there's anything wrong with spending my time just doing the little things I enjoy like blogging, reading, baking, watching films, painting my nails etc.

5. The idea of a dream career is drummed into us a little too much - Ever since college I've really struggled with knowing what I want to do with my life and being ill has made this even more difficult as I've felt like a 'career' is unachievable for me as I'm too ill to train and gain work experience. I'm really guilty of beating myself up a lot for not using my English and Creative Writing degree and for feeling like I haven't achieved anything, but when I take a step back I realise that I'm actually pretty happy with how things are as they are. I've managed to find a job that I really enjoy and that I can manage to do without making my illness too bad and I'm able to pursue my writing and creative interests through blogging. Just because things don't look how you imagined they would doesn't mean you aren't achieving anything and you should always be proud of yourself, no matter what you're doing.

6. Life is short, eat the bloody cake - There is so much emphasis on healthy eating nowadays and I just can't help but feel it's all gone a bit crazy. Obviously eating a balanced diet and being a healthy weight is very important, but the idea of what's healthy seems to have gone insane recently and I just want people to remember that it's ok to have treats sometimes. Having some nice food is one of the only things that cheers me up when I'm having a bad Fibro flare and I don't want to feel like I'm doing something really awful by having a bit of cake! Everything in moderation and all that, but you need to be happy in life and depriving yourself of a treat every now and again just isn't a good way to live. 

*I've been working on this post for a while and have kept changing my mind over whether to post it or not, but it's one of those ones I just needed to write for myself* :)

Love Holly xo

03/02/2015

LITTLE PURCHASES THAT HAVE BEEN MAKING ME HAPPY RECENTLY...

Newlook Pastel Pink Watch £9.99
I really want an Olivia Burton watch but I can't afford one so I thought this was a pretty good substitute when I spotted it in Newlook :) I think it looks much more expensive than it was and I've had lots of compliments on it at work - no one can believe it came from Newlook! I love how the strap is a very pastel pink as it goes with all of my clothes and I've found the quality to be really good so far; there hasn't been a trace of green on my wrist so I'm being extra careful not to spray any perfume near it :)
Maybelline 'Lash Sensational' Mascara £7.99 (currently on offer for £5.99 in Boots)
I usually try not to buy into products that are massively hyped by bloggers and celebrities (my Instragram feed seemed to go insane a couple of weeks ago with everyone and their nan promoting this mascara!) but I've always been such a fan of Maybelline mascaras so when I saw it was on offer in Boots I just couldn't resist giving it a try. The brush takes a bit of getting used to but I find if you start with the flatter side it gives lots of length to the lashes (this side works really well on bottom lashes too!) and then pop a couple of layers with the fuller side on top to create some volume. It's such a lovely consistency to work with as it doesn't clump and isn't too wet so you don't have to worry about making a mess with it. I really love the metallic pink packaging too; I don't think I've been this in love with a mascara since I tried the Benefit They're Real :) 
Primark Bow Pumps £5
I wanted a pair of really comfortable black pumps for everyday wear for work and although it's been way too cold for me to wear these yet I just absolutely love them. I think Primark have really upped their game with their shoes and accessories recently and I think these look so classy for £5! They are so comfortable too they feel like slippers and I just know I'm going to wear them to death. They have them in cream too which I'm going to have to get as they'll be perfect for spring :)
River Island Perfume 75ml £12
I got a sample of this in my Secret Santa from work and as soon as I smelt it I knew I was going to have to get the full size; it's such a gorgeous smell for everyday wear and is a bit more musky than the Next perfumes I usually wear. It's a really fresh smell that isn't too over-powering and is such a bargain for £12 :)

What have you been buying recently?
Love Holly xo